6/30 p3

coffee — the scratchy sound of the pen that permeates these notes — these little elements that go into the writing of a book — that are the essence of the writing of the book — (all these words are wrong — what do I do — do I rewrite and waste words — I hate wasting words — (relating) — (the permanence of these written words — the way words disappear into a word — nothingness from a word processor
what happens in the mind when I think of something to write — some lines that I don’t write and then forget — is it analogous to the word processor — simply gone — or are they still there somewhere — some void in the brain — lost thoughts sucked up like light into a black hole — held by their own density — my writing tends to get lost in parentheses (Simon - see Simon) — part of the writing consists in backtracking to find out where I was (Bachelard on space & time) — (the story of the writing has to relate to what I am reading while writing)

things that permeate these notes

these writings — get out of this aside —
(these asides))) — in and out

the possibility thought of over and over again of structuring a book out of sections such as this that I am now writing
organizational problems
possibilities (disorganizaional
problems / possibilities)

(organs)

(ideas of page structure)

this spurt type of writing I go through
I write several pages and then fade out —

organs
orgasms
analogies

<12/20/88
worked on notes pp3600-3619 — the amazing amount of time this takes — my eyes fade out — insert this there (for the fun / hell of it)
there is here - from p3797 — the first and the last>